So as it turns out, I censor myself. What the hell?

I will write out a blog post that I feel passionate about, and then I read it again and ponder… how can this bite me in the ass?

I never asked that question before. I didn’t much care to be honest. I’ve always tried to pride myself in being a person that speaks his mind and doesn’t bend to public views. I like who I am and what I do. I don’t really care if others accept this or that about me, simply because I’m who I say I am.

In life you often meet people and you don’t know if you’re getting the real deal or just some character they want you to see. You meet someone new and you’re on your best behavior, it’s the honeymoon phase of the friendship/relationship/whatever. You’re not 100% you and odds are, they’re not 100% them either.

What part of that makes sense though? We all wish the world was a better place, yet we all push bullshit personas forward rather then lowering the wall and showing people who we truly are. Sure, it’s for self preservation, I get that.. but at the same time… I wish people were just people, ya know?

I prefer someone to be blunt and honest over sugar coating and ass kissing every day. I might be thought of by some as an asshole, but at least the question of who I am is never up for debate. What you see is what you get. I will bend backwards to help my fellow man, but if walked upon, you’d best believe this changes.

Some people confuse being nice with being weak. They are *very* different.

If someone in business tries to screw me over, I go after them guns a blazin’ and I don’t think twice about it. My Dad was an asshole, US marine core drill sergeant for 17 years and one thing he taught me, you never bring a knife to a gun fight. Indiana Jones proved this point in raiders of the Lost Ark. (classic scene btw) If someone is out to screw you over, you communicate and see if you can reach a resolution, if you cannot, you do what you need to do. Simple.

Go to the mattresses.

I digress… (as I often do)

I’ve come to find lately I am censoring myself in my blog. I am asking who I might upset with this post or that post. Who I might piss off or how it might be bad for business if I speak openly about certain topics, certain people.

I think I am going to start being me again. I am tired of writing out long blog posts about things I feel very passionate about, then I nuke the blog post because I’m sure it’ll upset someone. That’s bullshit and that sure as hell isn’t me. While I do go out of my way to be someone I like, and someone my Mom would be proud of, I still need to be true to myself, right? I think so anyway.

So don’t expect some HOLYSHIT blog posts down the road, I’ll most likely still be posting some boring things.. but if I feel passionate about something and wish to rant, it’s done. It’s out there. No editing or just removing the post before it goes live.

Worst case, JERRY JERRY JERRY

Best case, I feel better about no longer being censored DING DING!